Not Knowing

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.

Gilda Radner


This pretty much sums up my life right now. This past year has brought major changes in all areas of my life: career, relationships and health. It’s not what I had planned, but it’s what I’ve got—Delicious Ambiguity. I like the sound of that. It’s all about acceptance, gratitude, and being open to the possibilities.

I’ve now reached the halfway mark in my recovery from spinal surgery, and am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s been six weeks since my surgery, and the neurosurgeon originally said I’d have to wear this neck brace for 3 months. So I’m on the home stretch now, hoping to get this thing off and be able to drive again in just a few weeks. Patience, patience…

The most positive outcome of all this turmoil has been the constant love and support I’ve received from my friends (you know who you are!). Having to ask for help and rely on others is a humbling experience, and I’ll be forever grateful to my good friends who have been, and continue to be, so supportive and giving. Thank you, thank you–from the depths of my soul.

Of course, there’s nothing that will hasten healing quicker than a crazy dog and a silly 2-yr. old granddaughter! Laughter is truly the best medicine. (Can you see the family resemblance?)
On another note–the week before my injury, I had the great good fortune to attend The ArtNest in Park City, Utah. More on that fabulous week in my next post…

4 thoughts on “Not Knowing”

  1. Oh, my Sammy girl looks so damn good!

    Tell us what you learned about how to make your pool work, that’s so cool that you can do it all by yourself now.
    Or just tell us SOMETHING!
    And for heavensske, post a new picture already! Show us your DJ collection!

  2. Cindy- I am the guy you gave a ride to the airport from Artfest 2003- I wondered what had happened to you- i saw a couple of things of yours in some magazines some time back. Sounds like many things have changed for you. I am excited as I have 6 pages in Terry Taylor’s new The Artful Storybook-
    I am still in northern Minneaosta and have has some real challenges but things are good-
    Take care- Terry

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